I’m not sure what to say. Today was awesome and terrible all in the same breath. The end of my ‘cross season was one I won’t forget, for a multitude of reasons. I loved. I lost. I was victorious. I was devastated. My physical body became strong. My spirit was broken. So ready for this chapter to be over, but so sad to see it go. I’m ready for something new. I’m ready to let my body rest. I’m ready to heal from the inside out. I’m ready to rid myself of all the things that hold me back, and sad to see those things come to an end. I’m ready to break down the ‘cross bike, put it in a corner, and rebuild my rode bike. I’m ready to ride away from it all. I’m ready to forget it all. I’m ready to relive it all. I’m ready to pull the covers over my head and hide from it all. I’m ready to go through it all again…just to feel it. Just to feel the nothingness that it brings. Just to hear that white noise. I want to erase it all from my memory and start over. Goodbye. Until we meet again.
Spring. I’m ready for you.