I’m not sure what’s going on inside my body but I am scared. Given my family history, it’s hard not to lay in bed at night and worry. Even now, at the breakfast table drinking my coffee, I can’t help but wonder what’s happening to me. I know worry only takes you to a dark place of no return, but I don’t want to be sick. So many things are unknown right now. I have been assured this will all be ok, but I don’t feel ok. I’m tired. My emotions are running high…higher than normal. It’s affecting my bike riding. It’s affecting my personal relationships. It’s affecting that one person I want to hold close…and I want to be closer right now. I’m afraid it’s going to cause me to ruin it all. I’m tired.