F.I.N.E.

Everything is going to be fine…eventually.  If I can keep my head out of my ass, feet on the pedals, and heart off my sleeve, all will be well again.  You know what happens when doctors give an emotional female more hormones?  Yep…she loses her shit.  So, yes, I lost my shit last week, but…

I’m not sure what’s going on inside my body but I am scared.  Given my family history, it’s hard not to lay in bed at night and worry.  Even now, at the breakfast table drinking my coffee, I can’t help but wonder what’s happening to me.  I know worry only takes you to a dark…

The Descent

I can’t sit here and conjure up some entertaining story about how disappointed I was after the NCCX opener.  There’s no build up.  No punch line.  No inspirational tale of how amazing bike racing is.  You know why?  Because it can’t be amazing all the time.  That’s just how life works. So now I am descending. …

I’m Not Going Anywhere

Borrowed parts and pieces from the garage to build my ride.  Old, worn out shorts and jerseys were given to me until I could buy my own.  Suffered through group rides only to find myself the last one on the road.  Spent my first ‘cross season finishing in the bottom half of every field, walking…

We’re just like anyone else…doing what we love.  Living life to the fullest.  Pedaling away fears.  Pedaling away sadness.  Pedaling for health, joy, competition.  It’s all heart.  It builds us.  Consumes us.  It becomes who we are.  It’s our escape from the ailments of this earth. Rest in peace, Sweet Amy, and all those taken…

“We’re all going to die. We don’t get much say over how or when. But we do get to decide how we’re going to live. So do it…decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder?…