All Heart

It’s no big secret that I wear my heart on my sleeve. I try to act tough, push people away, and keep my game face on for as long as possible. Those who’ve had an opportunity to get to know the me, understand my inner workings. I’m straight emo. I’m all heart, kid. My brother…

Idle Asheville

When I woke up this morning, I really had no direction or desire to point myself into a direction.  It’s the first Saturday in a long time that I don’t have a plan.  My OCD doesn’t allow for much down time, even though it’s necessary AND I actually enjoy down time on occasion.  It’s definitely been…

White Noise

There hasn’t been any motivation for a while now.  I’m not sure where it has taken off to, but I rarely ever WANT to ride my bike anymore.  I didn’t want to ride today, but I think other people know me better than I know myself, so I trusted their words.  My heart wasn’t in…

I’ve been working with middle school-aged kids for a week now. I’ve spent a lot of time calling them down for various broken rules and disrespect, but at the core…at the core they are amazing kids. These kids have definitely moved me this week, and I look forward to more beautiful moments with them. Speaking…

Fire on the Mountain

After weeks of internal upheaval, I decided to sack up and race Ring of Fire tonight.  I’ll skip all the female theatrics and simply put it this way… What the ever-loving hell was I doing out there? The good news?  My fear of crashing was quickly put to rest once the field left me in…

Aside

I’m almost a week into my newfound life in Asheville.  While I have no doubts this was the right decision, I’m so very unsettled right now.  My routine is gone.  My job is different.  My surroundings are different.  The way I get up and start my day is different.  I’ve been so used to the…

Welcome home, legs.

Now that I’m an official citizen of this sweet little mountain town, I had to ring in my newfound glory in style.  It’s been 7 days since I’ve been on the bike.  Yeah, yeah, yeah.  Before you nail me for being a fat, lazy piece of shit, just hear me out.  I worked nearly 70 hours,…

See ya later…

I feel like I’m moving across the country, even though I’m not. So many emotions right now…most of them positive. I’ve driven away from this house twice before…last time my mother got sick. I have to live my own life, though, and cannot continue to live for others. This is good.