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In the midst of today’s 32 mile ride in the 60 degree weather, I thought, “I’m peaceful and happy right NOW”.  Those small moments in time are what I live for.  Life is usually very difficult.  It’s sleepless, stressful and sad.  That’s the truth, at least from my perspective.  I find ways to cope and…

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  I just wanted to get my training in.  That’s all I wanted to do.  Up until this week, I’ve been riding the ‘cross bike on the trainer, with my extra wheel.  The Stevens is gone, back to its owner, and all I have is my road bike.  In the midst of trying to get…

I will feel so glad to go…

Sing me to sleep Sing me to sleep I’m tired and I I want to go to bed Sing me to sleep Sing me to sleep And then leave me alone Don’t try to wake me in the morning ‘Cause I will be gone Don’t feel bad for me I want you to know Deep…

Full circle

Almost a year has passed since I started this blog as a training journal.  Against my body’s will, I was a runner.  I desperately wanted my IT band and knees to cooperate, in spite of what I knew in my heart to be the truth.  Nothing made me feel that “high” like running.  After my first half-marathon,…

Aside

Sometimes I forget I’m not indestructable…and then I’m reminded.  My body has totally rejected my current lifestyle of insomnia and stress.

Megan rides bikes

I’ve been so caught up in the washing machine of life, I forgot what it’s really all about.  The bike.  Truly.  My feelings have totally ripped away my logical thought process, and I’ve been left with the memory of my teenage pipe dreams.  Or should I say bike dreams?  I need to get my head…

Bleeding heart

I don’t remember the exact moment I realized I was different, but I recall it was some time in my early childhood years.  I remember being such a sensitive little girl.  Everything made me cry.  I remember when my dad’s mother passed away, and I watched him cry at her funeral.  It felt like my…

I don’t mind if you forget me

I don’t mind I don’t mind if you forget me Having learned my lesson I never left an impression on anyone So now you send me your hardened  ‘regards’ When once you’d send me ‘love’ Sincerely I must tell you Your mild ‘best wishes’ They make me suspicious I don’t mind I  don’t mind if…

One of these mornings…

I was in my 20s.  He was 7 years older than me.  I had moved to his little ski town some years earlier, dropping out of college to “find myself”.  We dated for quite a few years, actually.  I had met all of his family and he had met mine.  I had pictured our entire…