You don’t know me. You make assumptions of who I am based on my outward appearance. When I fail, you latch on like an insecure child. You attack me. You love me. You leave me. You come back to me. When I succeed, you praise me. Fairweather love…but what’s “fair” about it?
You watched me fumble through life. I scraped my knees. You offered a shoulder when I was weak and couldn’t stand on my own. I trusted you. I don’t trust anyone. I must stop trusting people. MUST STOP TRUSTING PEOPLE.
You promised me everything and nothing. I knew you weren’t good for me. Gut feelings are real. I listened to my heart instead…so famous for this. Shelter from the storm. Time stopped. I mistakenly put everything on the back-burner for you. I pinched myself…and woke up. Everything was on fire. Your words slit my throat. I couldn’t breathe. How did it come to this?
I walked for days, weeks, months. I walked aimlessly in search of everything I couldn’t have. I never saw you again, but your words lingered. Even now, strong and secure, your words lay across my body like scar tissue. I can’t rid myself of you.
My insides turned black. I built a wall. I found myself. I liked myself. And now I find myself burning at the stake, just a stone’s throw away. Spreading negativity like the plague. Your own insecurities burn my skin. Take a look in the mirror…it’s not me you’re seeing.
There’s no need to argue anymore…