Today hasn’t been the best of days. Not sure if my emotional state is due to the lack of sleep from two nights ago OR the surplus of sleep I received last night. Whatever the cause, this roller coaster has taken a nose dive. It was all I could do to start my workout this afternoon, with the hope I would pedal my way out of this hole. Didn’t work.
Although I seem like I have it together, neatly arranged in my little box, I really don’t. Every single day I have spent back in Tennessee has been a struggle. Some days easier than others. While I have made a temporary life for myself, ultimately this is not where I want to be.
I feel like I can’t breathe. This house smothers me. I love my family with everything inside me, but being in a house with them makes me lose my mind. I can’t get a moment of peace. Ever. Enough is enough.
Today has been an emotional challenge as well as a physical one. I just want to pull the covers over my head and tune it all out. Leave me alone, world. I don’t feel like playing today.