Rise

I woke up and immediately wanted a do-over. Things were slow, melancholy and the sky was gray. At some point, the sun came out, and I wanted to ride. I didn’t care how cold it was. I wanted to ride…and ride alone. I set out for 45 miles, something I’ve never conquered by myself. It…

Never easy…

It’s easier to ignore the truth and settle for whatever you wanna call this.  It’s NOT easy.  This has never been easy.  It will continue to be internally excruciating.  The outside is covered in glitter, sitting underneath a rainbow, surrounded by flowers and happiness and puppies.  Yeah, all that smiley shit.  I’m not unhappy.  I’m…

Little green lunch cooler

I remember the first time I fell in love.  I was a sporty-spiced 4th grader at Holston Elementary School.  I was sitting in class working on my multiplication tables when I saw him.  Timothy.  His family has just moved to town and he was new to our class that day.  Timothy was wearing a blue shirt,…

“Exit Music (For A Film)”

Wake.. from your sleep The drying of your tears Today we escape, we escape Pack.. and get dressed Before your father hears us Before all hell breaks loose Breathe, keep breathing Don’t lose your nerve Breathe, keep breathing I can’t do this alone Sing.. us a song A song to keep us warm There’s such…

A letter to you, part 2.

I went to see you today.  I’m sorry it’s been so long.  I find it hard to handle memories of you most of the time.  Being the holidays, your memory finds creative ways to slip up behind me.  Things haven’t been easy.  I bet you’re laughing at me daily.  Our family is certainly a handful…I’m…

If only Jack and Bono would make this a duet…