Today I punished myself. I ran 50% of my long run in agony. My ITB flared up again. I’m really trying to keep my head up, but I have spent most of the day being pissed off. I feel like most of my runs over the last few weeks have sucked hardcore. I had a couple GREAT runs and a ton of CRAP runs. People keep telling me “it’s part of the journey”. Well, I still suck at running. I’m not getting any faster. I’ve lost that spark I had a few weeks ago. I’ve lost my motivation. I don’t know how to get it back. I feel like such a wus.